“This isn’t what’s in his diaper bag.”
I looked down. Inside the canvas bag was a half-empty tin of the cheapest powdered formula sold at a neighborhood discount store.
“That’s not his,” I said.
Maya turned her head toward us. Her eyes opened only halfway.
“Eleanor said the other one was wasteful,” she whispered. “She said babies don’t know the difference.”
The nurse’s expression changed, but she asked no further questions. She simply wrote something on the chart.
A doctor examined Maya behind a curtain while I sat outside with Liam against my chest. He had stopped crying and was making small, exhausted sounds in his sleep. His face was red from the cold. One tiny fist had escaped the blanket and rested against my shirt.
I had imagined meeting my son a hundred times during the flight home.
I had pictured Maya standing at the door, smiling despite her exhaustion. I had pictured taking Liam in my arms while my mother cried and Chloe took pictures. I had imagined warmth, food, laughter, and the city counting down to midnight outside our windows.
