He still got things wrong.
“Yes.”
“Because you don’t trust me?”
“Because I’m learning to trust myself. If this falls apart again, I won’t wait until I’m broken to do something about it.”
That night, Miles cried from the nursery.
I started to rise.
“Because you don’t trust me?”
Derek was already moving.
“I’ve got him. That’s his tired cry.”
He disappeared down the hall.
A minute later, the crying softened.
I picked up my tea.
Still warm.
I picked up my tea.
For months, I’d thought a good mother carried everything.
Then I broke my arm and learned something better.
Good mothers don’t have to prove how much they can survive.
And fathers shouldn’t have to be asked to be fathers.